A letter for my future baby

I have no clue whether ur a girl or a boy, but I just want to tell u that I already love you to the moon and back and I am going to fight the whole world for you….

I want to tell you that your mother is a strong lady. I always fought for what I wanted in my life. As Bhagwad Gita says, “ If u don’t fight for what you want, then don’t cry for what u lost”. Always remember in your life that thing will not always be in your favor and if you believe that you want something in some way then only you will have to fight for it.

I entered my medical college with a harsh sentence from my grandmother “You are a girl, u will first ruin your dad’s money in this education and then will again ruin the leftover money in your marriage.” I could not forget this sentence throughout my 5 years of college. Just after I completed my 5 years of college everyone in the family started literally forcing me to get married. When I refused the relatives started making stories that she might have a boyfriend that’s why she is refusing. I got a marriage proposal for settling in a gulf country, oh that’s a long story. But, I always fought hard. I fought for myself. I fought for what I believed was right for me.

I think most of the times my decisions landed me in temporary troubles but later proved to the best in the long run. I first decided to get a job before getting married. This proved to be the best ever decision of my life. In the next years, I was financially independent and never had to beg for money from my husband or parents. Instead, I was capable of gifting my husband a brand new car, my mother a fully automatic washing machine and my father a laptop and myself an awesome Europe trip.

Nobody supported me when I decided to go alone to another city for my first job. I fought for myself coz felt that it was best for me. Paulo Coelho says “When you want something, the entire universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.”

I just kept on dreaming for myself with open eyes. This is the best thing my dad has taught me. When I was young, he brought me a book of Sh. APJ Abdul Kalam. The main crux of the book was this that every child should see dreams. I never stopped dreaming.

My grandmother stopped talking to me for a few months after I rejected that gulf country boy marriage proposal. I worked without any salary in a civil hospital for which my brother helped me a lot. I used to feel so happy and satisfied at the end of the day after returning from the hospital. I met an amazing dentist –Dr. Hooda in my civil hospital Paonta Sahib where I practiced for four months. He taught me the perfect RCT. I made lifelong friends with dental technician-Kiran. With her 10k salary, she used to save money for gifting me clothes. I was not earning at that time, but I always dreamed of gifting her something when I will start earning. I used to be so damn busy in the hospital work. In the evening I and my friend Kiran used to sit on the shores of Yamuna river and discuss life.

After some time, I felt that I should get a salaried job just like some of my batch mates. One day while returning from my home to the city where I worked, I sat on a wrong bus that was going to Chandigarh. I decided to remain seated on the bus and I went alone in search of a job I had heard about from one of my friends. I managed to find an office building. I went inside and enquired about the interview schedules and email Id from the guard. I then came back disappointed but determined to go back to that company one day for the interview. One day after a month or so, I received an interview call from that company. I was thrilled. I was a dumb girl who lacked any personality and common sense which are the basic prerequisites for any job. The interviewer asked me “Have you applied anywhere else?” I said proudly “Yes” I started describing the government job and salary and everything to them. After which they asked me that if you get selected in both the jobs then will your parents allow you to change your field from dentistry to pharmacovigilance. After this, I answered in a doubtful tone something dumb like “M not sure” After this, they told me to go outside and be sure …Ha ha…

I was confused because I knew that my father was against this job as it involved a 2 years contract.

I was sitting outside when my college friend who was working in that company came and started shouting on me, “R u mad ? not everyone gets this chance that you got. And about that contract, u need not worry as u will earn enough to pay for that contract within a month or two”. I called my dad who told me to return home. I went outside for lunch when I asked myself what I wanted. After this, I had no doubt. I pleaded for a second attempt for the interview. They simply said no. But then me being me. The guard was observing me and asked me what happened. I simply told him the whole story. You know what!!! This guard pleaded to the interviewers from my side for my interview rescheduling. And the interviewers were laughing on my stupidity, innocence and wit may be…

I got another chance for the interview; I answered all the questions correctly.

I went back and my relatives asked me how the interview was, I said that it was not that good. Then she said that I was not going to get selected for sure. I believed her. I went back to the normal routine. After one week I got a call for selection. But I was too busy in my negativity and believing my relatives instead of myself that I missed that call. Never in history, had having missed a call cost me as much as this one. I had kept my mobile on silent mode and was sleeping. When I got up I saw 3-4 missed calls. One was from my senior dentist, whose name I had given for referral in that job CV. Another 2 were from that company landline. They selected the next candidate which I confirmed after calling my friend in that company.

I spent the next whole year working in some odd jobs with pathetic salary packages in some secluded rural locations of Himachal. God gave me a very good lesson for not believing in myself. After this life-changing experience, there is not a single day when I do not believe in myself. This attitude changed my life. I always think positive and believe in myself. This attitude gave me everything that I wished for in my life.

 

I am sharing my stories with you, not to be preachy but so that you learn from my mistakes as life is too short to repeat such mistakes and then learn from them by yourself. Also, I know life is unpredictable as I always used to tell to my roommates. So, I wanted to share my experiences with you in a written form so that you will learn from them.

My parents have made so many sacrifices both physically and financially to gift me and my brother such a beautiful life. We survived to be minimalists. From saving money on uniforms, grocery or even milk we learned the importance of hard work, money and time from our parents.

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